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i want to tell you so much
like how one day you'll meet a kid
who steps on butterflies for fun
and you'll probably hate him
but i want you to think about the possibility that
maybe someone stepped on his wings
and he can't understand how they can fly but he
can't.
.
or like another kid who slit your friend's wrist with the glass from the library door
and killed a snake by thrashing its skull on the sidewalk
and kicked a kitten who had just been run over that morning and was barely holding on.
you'll probably hate him, too.
and i want you to remember
that russian orphanages are no place to learn morals
that severe brain damage is permanent in infants
that some people are just born to be
cruel.
.
and maybe one day you'll find a single Ember in the ashes of a fire.
hopefully you'll save her life by blowing ever so softly
and one day you'll watch her burn into an inferno
but i want you to know
that she's not going to be there forever
that someone's going to make a mistake
and all you'll have left of her is a handful of
feathers.
.
and i want you to remember how you would play board games with your grandmother
and now her favorite piece lays on its side in the box, dormant.
maybe one day when you go to visit your grandfather
you'll realize you haven't given him a hug in three months
and maybe you'll hear nothing but the antique clock in the living room
and you'll realize how quiet it is without
her.
.
i want to tell you so much
but i'm afraid you won't be able to handle it
or you'll forget
or you'll remember
or you won't hear me at
all.
.
if you're going to take one thing from this:
keep carrying that pencil around.
maybe one day you'll end up like me
a beautifully ugly, disgustingly sweet, sliver-tongued, tongue-tied
poetess.
like how one day you'll meet a kid
who steps on butterflies for fun
and you'll probably hate him
but i want you to think about the possibility that
maybe someone stepped on his wings
and he can't understand how they can fly but he
can't.
.
or like another kid who slit your friend's wrist with the glass from the library door
and killed a snake by thrashing its skull on the sidewalk
and kicked a kitten who had just been run over that morning and was barely holding on.
you'll probably hate him, too.
and i want you to remember
that russian orphanages are no place to learn morals
that severe brain damage is permanent in infants
that some people are just born to be
cruel.
.
and maybe one day you'll find a single Ember in the ashes of a fire.
hopefully you'll save her life by blowing ever so softly
and one day you'll watch her burn into an inferno
but i want you to know
that she's not going to be there forever
that someone's going to make a mistake
and all you'll have left of her is a handful of
feathers.
.
and i want you to remember how you would play board games with your grandmother
and now her favorite piece lays on its side in the box, dormant.
maybe one day when you go to visit your grandfather
you'll realize you haven't given him a hug in three months
and maybe you'll hear nothing but the antique clock in the living room
and you'll realize how quiet it is without
her.
.
i want to tell you so much
but i'm afraid you won't be able to handle it
or you'll forget
or you'll remember
or you won't hear me at
all.
.
if you're going to take one thing from this:
keep carrying that pencil around.
maybe one day you'll end up like me
a beautifully ugly, disgustingly sweet, sliver-tongued, tongue-tied
poetess.
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dear past me,
i.
you tried so hard to be saccharine even
when inside you felt like something burning bitter;
you don’t need to do that.
don’t lower your eyes when they tell you you
aren’t enough, don’t let them
walk all over your chest until you can’t breathe,
don’t let them crush your heart and tear
apart your youthful hope.
don’t let them be your downfall.
keep your head held high.
ii.
keep wearing long skirts.
you love them for the way they
swish around your ankles and billow out
when you twirl and the way they hide your
legs from sight;
don’t love them for that last reason.
love them because they’
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dear self,
don't
even
try
it.
i'll get all
poetic
with you, since you
despise to listen;
stop chasing boys who
don't even like you;
they don't like
girls, not at this age;
stop thinking you
know how the world works,
you aren't a
c
i r
c l
e
of genius in radical
magnitudes; you're (fucking)
crazy, i'll give you that,
and you know how to get what
you want, but it doesn't make
you queen of saigon
(you'll have to wait a few years
until then)
you will learn the
definition of love when you're
introduced to danger and
black leather boys with caramel
skin and slick hair and everything
you thought was "idiotic" when you
were four;
y
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past still lingers
the crow speaks once to the wicked
plucking yellowmilk eyes, one-string revivals
to an old count of sins
and yesterday visions of pacific rush
folding over the coast like a blanket of stars
and the water remembers
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"Or maybe it'll end up as ashes in the fireplace."
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My poem for Khaimin's contest, "Letter to My Past Self". New Contest!
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My poem for Khaimin's contest, "Letter to My Past Self". New Contest!
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ohmygod Bree this is so vivid and so beautiful and just so alive. it's incredible and powerful. and when i realized you'd written it for your past self, i was completely speechless. I love this.